Thursday, May 26, 2011

Anger

author's note
I wrote this feeling bad about flipping out on my mom when I know she trys her best for me.
the pent up feeling
of bursting into fury
wishing to unleash Hell
because of past turmoil.
but no,
just keep holding it in
let it eat at you
until you can't take it
the day to day hurt
the day to day pain
even then
just leave it alone.
if you do have a single outburst
of the true feeling within
people will shut you down
since you are not deemed normal
as others want you to.
so we can all just let our anger be
until we snap
and finally release this swarming
burning
painful fury of Hell
on someone who doesn't deserve it
who shouldn't be treated that way.

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

go

JUST GO
take your bags
leave the people you know.
my heart now,
there's a hole through
I don't care
I simply don't need you.
you don't care
you think you don't need to be there.
you're right,
I will be fine
except what you don't know
is that I'm lying.
people say look at the positives
people say it'll be okay
but people don't understand
they just expect me to flow with the sway.
thanks though
since you helped me see
you're never going to be there for me.
I'm glad you went
to Hell I hope you are sent.
JUST GO.

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Throne of the Clouds

*authors note*
I wrote this as a parallel to Carl Sandburg's "Ready To Kill" which is placed lower into the post. It was more or less a contradiction midway through the poem.
God sits and watches,
watches us murder each other,
kill our own kind upon these meadows,
these meadows filled with memories of death,
memories of pain.
petty soldiers send steaming hot lead,
into the bodies of fathers, husbands, and once children,
all being forced into death,
going into death all too abruptly to enjoy life.
ripping apart fellow living,
breathing,
men,
who are now icy,
dead,
men.
all upon these hills of sorrow,
where the grass is freshly doused with blood,
blood of men that God created,
that God protected,
but now, God just sits and watches.
these killers, who thrive for bloodshed,
looking down upon the bodies,
these burnt and torn bodies,
killers stand and smile,
as the dead are their art,
and the living enemy is their pallet.
men like this, they should die!
but does it make it right,
murdering each other?
are we the reason God sits and watches?
because we murder murderers?


Ten minutes now I have been looking at this.
I have gone by here before and wondered about it.
This is a bronze memorial of a famous general
Riding horseback with a flag and a sword and a revolver
on him.
I want to smash the whole thing into a pile of junk to be
hauled away to the scrap yard.
I put it straight to you,
After the farmer, the miner, the shop man, the factory
hand, the fireman and the teamster,
Have all been remembered with bronze memorials,
Shaping them on the job of getting all of us
Something to eat and something to wear,
When they stack a few silhouettes
Against the sky
Here in the park,
And show the real huskies that are doing the work of
the world, and feeding people instead of butchering them,
Then maybe I will stand here
And look easy at this general of the army holding a flag
in the air,
And riding like hell on horseback
Ready to kill anybody that gets in his way,
Ready to run the red blood and slush the bowels of men
all over the sweet new grass of the prairie.

Friday, January 28, 2011

Two Short Poems

*Author's Note*
I decided to play with the sound of words on these pieces trying to make you think and also see what I wrote.
            Trees  
Trees around me stand stiff,
Stiff and cold,
Cold without the comfort of leaves.
Cold against the brisk breeze,
The breeze of today,
The breeze of yesterday,
And the breeze of tomorrow,
All haunting the icy trees,
The comfortless trees.


   A Sky
I stare into a sky,
A sky of wonder,
A sky of abyss.
Icy raindrops follow me,
Landing on my face,
Onto my arms,
Piercing like needles,
One by one.
The grey sky consumes this city,
Consuming the buildings that touch the clouds,
That stand at the feet of God.
The drops get heavier,
But I ignore it all,
And keep staring,
Wondering,
How life can be so bleak, yet so beautiful.


Monday, November 29, 2010

Guilt

*Author's Note*
Guilt can make your biggest fear, yourself since guilt eats at your mind, your consciousness, driving you insane or as in this poem, suicide.


An eerie wind blows throughout the graveyard,
Giving dead leaves the final push toward the ground.
Bushes rustle in the distance,
As every instinct flashes,
Screaming turn around,
Screaming go back.
The need of redemption pushes me forward into abyss,
Of deceased people,
That withhold magnificent stories to tell,
Now that are locked forever.
I slowly ponder along,
Reading names,
Reading lives.
The clouds part, revealing a full moon,
The moon's light assists my nervousness,
Watching for things to come at me,
To take me.
I carry on forward glancing side to side,
A dog's barking echoes across the night,
Drawing my attention to an old dying willow tree,
It was as if it was a movie.
I turn around looking out,
Looking out into darkness,
Into hopelessness.
I look at my hands, 
Which are drenched in blood,
I frantically wipe my hands on my pants,
Trying to clean them,
Trying to clean my history.
My mind triggers all of what I've seen and done,
Then panic sets in,
I start to run in fear of myself,
Running in guilt of what I am,
Not who I am.
Thinking is irrational in these moments,
In these moments of unknown.
My imagination and fear takes over,
Something pushes me,
Making me stumble,
Making me fall.
My head cracks up against a gravestone,
And I lay there,
Thinking on how I was everything I hated.
These moments are vital to realization,
Realization of maybe my mind,
Maybe my guilt shoved me to the ground,
Forcing me into this abrupt death I deserve.
Now going in between consciousness,
Wanting the pain to cease,
Waiting for the blood flow to dwindle,
Hoping to die.

Friday, June 4, 2010

Nature

 *Authors Note*
This is a somewhat long piece. Thank you if you read the whole thing. I did the poems while Ryan Harris did the fictional piece and he also did the rest of the authors note.
The growing global demands and the corruption of world economy may very well lead to total failure of human structure. The most current event in my eyes is a peak to this crisis, the gulf oil spill. Corporations and companies, such as the oil industry must find a more efficient and eco friendly process to pull through with their objectives. Despite the growing demand and despite the current issues concerning the government. A law may be passed as to open the door to this much larger crisis.
The crisis of global warming, our Earth can’t possibly sustain the pressure we are placing on it right now. We haven’t measured the level of effects we have or when the world will end, but what we do know is that our previous decisions aren’t helping. For example one of the million causes towards global warming is indeed oil, companies must put more effort into the process, or the system by which they transport their materials. Not just throw darts at a map and come to a spontaneous conclusion.
Oil companies themselves effect the environment, but a nice temporary solution is synthetic oil. As it helps the environment by reducing the bad or used oil waste stream. Researchers must perform the proper research and sacrifice the proper materials to find a separate eco friendly element, by which will open a whole new door to the demands and needs we face every day. If we can’t keep up, the world can’t either.


Water sloshes along the banks,
While fish swiftly swim,
Through the crystal clear water.
Small pebbles roll along with the current,
Stones being tossed in,
Disrupting the gentle sway,
The sway of this stream.
The ripples travel throughout the water,
And the fish scatter greatly frightened.
Further along the stream,
Frogs lie on lily pads,
And rib bit bringing an enchanting theme,
The theme of a stream being untouched,
Of no buildings,
Of just peace.
But it ends as a black substance travels down the stream,
Fish unknowingly stay near this mysterious thing,
Breathing it in through their gills,
Then realizing it brings pain,
It brings sickness,
It brings death.

Standing above all the other trees,
Delicately moving with the wind,
Branches hanging down,
Leaves sprouting,
The old willow tree.
Perfect for small animals to start their home in,
To start their family in,
To start to live.
Many animals claim their place in the hollow tree,
Building nests,
Building burrows,
Building love.
Animals scurry down the trunk looking for food,
Looking for water,
Looking for things to sustain their life.
They come back to a stump,
Of what used to be their home,
The old willow tree is tipped over,
With strange animals on two legs picking branches up,
Picking up nests,
Picking up carcasses.

Green grass covering the ground,
As a soft cushion above the earth.
The trees elegantly standing,
Silently watching.
Small animals make their homes in trees,
Hatching eggs,
Storing food,
Living as God intended.
Loud noises disrupt the serenity,
Noises not heard before.
Large things heading straight for this forest,
Straight at this home.
Trees crack and fall,
Animals scatter at the noise,
Scatter from the orange machines tearing apart their homes.
Though some stay protecting their homes,
Not knowing the power of these things heading for them.
The machines crush everything in their path,
They bring pain,
They bring sickness,
They bring death.
They are Mankind.

As I soar through the sky, the ground below me appears a delicate, fragile, and graceful piece of our future and  our past. Herds of horses valiantly trample through the wide open planes. I may say that yesterday, today, and tomorrow are everything I would expect. Nature and all it has to offer is infinite. I land in my favorite spot in the whole wide world, the willow tree. The smells of its flowers and the care it shares with me. Never asking for anything in return. When I needed it most, it would comfort me.
Winter came, as I migrated south for months with the other birds. Admiring the luscious ground below us. We land in the desert and playfully wonder through the cloudless, illuminated plains before us. As time passed so did our environment. I decided to say here for longer, as I felt commendable. At first changes were small, but they grew larger and faster. Immense blocks all around me everywhere I passed it wasn’t preventable. The only thing that kept me together was the willow tree. Every night everyday I would dream of the willow tree.
I met one bird just like me, as he was quite admirable indeed. We would think of our homes and the warmth by which they gave to us. He was my companion forever. Soon we agreed to return to the willow tree. Ecstatic and joyful I couldn’t wait to lay my eyes on the willow tree, but in the back of my head I was disturbed and tormented by the changes of the once fertile and delicate ground. All the immense cubes and darkened rivers growing larger and larger even as we watch! My companion and I are filled with joy as we see the willow tree once again. Oh the willow tree, valiant as its branches sway in the wind, as it reaches towards the sky, symbolizing hope and love.
We lay our nest in one of the highest branches of the willow tree. As we proceed in the circle of life we lay our eggs and insure all we have into the willow tree. Weeks I would lay on those eggs, until finally one day they hatched. The heartwarming love the hatchlings brought to me. I felt complete with my companion and hatchlings life couldn’t have been better. My many trips in hunt for food and supplies still brought me the disturbing images of the blackened rivers and smoked clouds.
As I fly back to the willow tree, I am petrified from the once valiant tree laying in front of me. Just cement and black rivers, for now there are no hatchlings to comfort me, or a willow tree, or even my companion. Only my tears may comfort me, in my dreams and during the day, for they never ask for anything in return, as they share with me.    

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Flames

 *Author's Note*
This is an older journal entry into a poem. I added a few things and took some out.

A single strike of a match,
Brings flames,
Gently licking the edges of the wood,
Attempting to have it become ash.
The heat beats off of the golden orange flames,
Onto my face and hands,
And I accept the feeling of warmth,
Of comfort.
The crackle of the flames,
Brings echoes throughout the night,
And as I take in the aroma around me,
I realize that,
This ever so gentle flame holds power,
The power of heat,
The power of destruction,
The power of life.

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Running (Poem)

*Author's Note*



This is the poem version of the stream of consciousness "Running".

Running in fear,
Of what is behind,
The unknown though, stays ahead,
Only knowing fear has driven me this far,
This far away from hope, from happiness.
The sting of pain arrives,
Like a brisk breeze of the early morning.
The pain makes me realize,
That life is short,
So why waste it living in fear?
So face the fear I am running from,
Except the only fear I carry,
Is the man I am.
I then understand,
What it is I am running from,
I am running from myself.

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Running

*Author's Note*



I saw someone jogging and it sparked an inspiration for a rather depressing Stream of Consciousness since the weather was bleak.


Running in fear of what’s behind, still not knowing what is ahead. Only knowing fear is driving me into this desolate land of hopelessness. Realizing the sting of pain has finally arrived like a brisk breeze of the early morning. Noticing that life is hard enough and rather short, taking a chance to stand up. Face the fear that I was running from. Except a twisted idea makes me figure out I should just give up. Give up on the fear I am running from, simply give up on life. The only fear though is facing the person I truly am. Then I understand what I am running from. I am running from myself.

Thursday, April 1, 2010

The Stream

*Author's Note*
This wasn't a journal entry it was simply a counter to my attempt of a poem "Death". This just came to me as I wrote.

Water slowly rushes through the groups of cattails and sloshes along the banks. Fish swim through the crystal clear water swiftly. The small pebbles flow gently with the current. The sound of a stone being tossed in, disrupting the gentle sway of the water. The ripples move through out the patch of water where the stone plummeted while the fish scatter, greatly frightened at the possibility of death.
Down the stream even more, the frogs rest upon lily pads of many different sizes. The ribbit of the frogs bring an enchanting theme to the atmosphere. The amazing atmosphere of the stream being untouched by humans, of no buildings, of just peace.

Death

*Author's Note*

This is my first poem so bear with me. I find that I'm better at depressing pieces and I've never attempted a poem so why not kill two birds with one stone? The poem is just about desperation and hopelessness. It truly came out of no where.

The feeling of something eating at your soul,
At your heart.
The unforgiving truth,
The want of life,
Of having it back.
The despair,
The fear,
The realization that life is unfair.
The anger,
The sadness,
The need of vengeance.
The attempt of life once again,
The bitter taste of defeat,
The dreams of life then.
The final days,
The final hours,
The final wish to give up,
The death.

Tuesday, December 8, 2009